Am I a good daughter or not?

“A family that prays together stays together”. Some people say and believe in this saying. Even me, I believe in that but it is impossible for me to have a complete family. Do you know why?

Years ago, when my mother is still thirty-six, she fell in love with a man who has a wife already. They meet in their meeting place everyday. There are many people who hindered their love for each other. Until there came a day that they vowed that no one can ever separate them. And because of that forbidden love, I became whole, meaning my mother became pregnant.

But few months later, my father changed. He became cruel. I think he was given a magic potion. One thing I hated most is, he said that he want my mother to go to the abortionist to abort me. See how cruel he is? My father wants me to die!

Because of the love of my mother, she did not go to the abortionist and I was not aborted. Yehey! She gave me a chance to live!

On the twenty-fifth day of April, my mother was brought to the delivery room. She should be caesarian because It will be difficult for me to be safe if she will not be operated that way. The doctors put some anesthesia in her body to lessen the pain.

Few minutes later, a baby girl was born. She named her Vernie. It was me. My family name was supposed to be Tanola but because my mother and father were not married, I am bringing the family name of my mother. I was named As Vernie Naraja.

My father started to be close to me but not to my mother. I do not know the reason why.

From then on, my father started to give the things that my mother can not afford. Another good news also is that the wife of my father transferred to another place because she will do some business there. She will sell some junk foods, soft drinks and barbecue there.

When I reached at four years old, I stated to be curious at things. I saw a poster posted on the wall of my father. There was a list of the members of the family of my father written there.

I asked father about it. He explained to me everything that had happened. Despite of young age, I understood everything.

Presently, I always saw a family that goes somewhere together. I am easily jealous especially when they are filled with laughter. But anyway, I am trying to be a good daughter to my parents. I will study hard to prove to them, especially to my father, that I am worthy to live.

In UP,I am now experiencing great challenges. One of those challenges is to have good grades. This grading, I know that my parents and sponsors will not be happy anymore. My grades went down. I will not be an honor student anymore.

Mme. Lapa told us that we became lazy. If she asks us if we understood the lesson, we would say yes even if we do not. Mme. Logarta also said that we became lazy. She even said that we are not retarded then how come that we are wasting time for something else? In computer also Ms. Avergonzado said our grades went down. It is because of our project. Although we have passed the partial of it, it is late. It is because we misunderstood the deadline. We thought that we will pass it a week after our periodical test but because we misunderstood, we passed it four days after the deadline. She also said that we will pass our project until midnight.

Because of my low grades, do you think that I am a good daughter or not?